I never thought university would be so stressful. it always seems like there is so little time to do everything I want to do. Not enough daylight hours.
And i have too many Ideas and too many thoughts and when I concentrate on one for a project, I get bored of it.
There's too much pressure and the thing is I don't even have pressurizing parents or boyfriend. I think I pressure myself to do so well and then I over-think everything. I imagine that the tutors are pressuring me too I think, but really it's just myself, not thinking I've impressed enough, that I've done nothing of worth.
So maybe Fine Art isn't driving me insane, maybe I'm doing it to myself.
And also, whilst I'm ranting, I'm fed up of friends putting pressure on me or telling me off for not doing what they expect me to do. Sometimes I just want to stay in, you know? Or go somewhere alone or not come back to uni halls just because you want me to.
And I think I pressure myself by being too focused on the final outcome of work. on having the perfect creative process.
I'm too stressed right now.
My new plan is to find out how to chill out about my work, or practice.