Some images that actually have something to do with my project. Currently exploring the idea of death and history and the traces that people leave.

Can't wait to get into the darkroom in a week and really mix things up.

Going to Berlin tonight though for a week. Going to see if I can find a graveyard there to take some photos in.

Have done more photography and less actual Fine Art lately. I should really figure out how to combine the two. I should have done a photography degree.

Anyway, am going out tomorrow to do some Fine art photography.

Some recently developed 35mm photos. The last was taken in summer and only just developed and the other two are both my friend Tess and were taken on Wednesday.

My studio space at Uni.

I'm so unfocused right now. Everything I say in my tutorials comes out wrong and my tutor makes me feel like I don't know what I'm doing. Or what I'm doing isn't right. I just need to get my head in the right space because I know that when I do focus I can do good work.

Mostly thinking about history of places and the people in them at the moment, also graves and maps and the paranormal.

Not sure where I'm going with it all yet though.

Here's a picture taken with my Diana.

Fine Art is driving me insane.

I never thought university would be so stressful. it always seems like there is so little time to do everything I want to do. Not enough daylight hours.
And i have too many Ideas and too many thoughts and when I concentrate on one for a project, I get bored of it.
There's too much pressure and the thing is I don't even have pressurizing parents or boyfriend. I think I pressure myself to do so well and then I over-think everything. I imagine that the tutors are pressuring me too I think, but really it's just myself, not thinking I've impressed enough, that I've done nothing of worth.
So maybe Fine Art isn't driving me insane, maybe I'm doing it to myself.

And also, whilst I'm ranting, I'm fed up of friends putting pressure on me or telling me off for not doing what they expect me to do. Sometimes I just want to stay in, you know? Or go somewhere alone or not come back to uni halls just because you want me to.

And I think I pressure myself by being too focused on the final outcome of work. on having the perfect creative process.

I'm too stressed right now.

My new plan is to find out how to chill out about my work, or practice.